Christmas time

The Christmas season has always been one of my favorites. There is something that is almost magical about listening to Christmas music while the snow is gracefully falling outside, blanketing everything with a promise of new life to start when it is gone. Turning what was dead to a white cover that in the spring time would yield new life.
I can remember when i was little, christmas was like speed to me.. I always seemed to have a hard time falling asleep and was never really aware that i had fallen asleep until i woke up the next morning, and bounded down the stairs in anticipation of the piles and piles of gifts that were left under the tree by Santa and of course Mom and
Dad. I can remember Mom and Dad letting us do our stockings when we first got up, but we had to wait until after breakfast to do the presents.And of course it is hard for a little kid who is excited to think of anything else other than opening presents, let alone eating breakfast. there was this friend of my parents who used to always bring us over a fruitcake on Christmas too. it was actually pretty good.
I can remember one Christmas when my brother and i decided that we were going to wait up so that we could see Santa. once we thought that mom and dad had gone to bed, Tyler and i snuck out on the hardwood landing that overlooked the living, hoping to sneak a glimpse of Santa and to our dismay, it was not Santa that we saw, but Mom and Dad..
I can remember another Christmas when i was young, we were opening presents and there was this one present. it was a piece of metal piping in a box. my brother looked all confused and i did too for a moment. and then i realized what it was and jumped up. i ran to the edge of the livingroom and opened the door and there stood a firemans pole going to the basement. and there was also an inflatable dinosaur in there... it was a great Christmas.
There was one Christmas that i got a dollhouse that my dad and brother had made for me and now that i have a little girl, i gave it to her for Christmas last year and she has loved playing with it.
Now that i have my own family, i have started to make new traditions that are right for us. such as decorating the tree on our daughters birthday.... two days before christmas, and of course there is all of the shopping and wrapping of the presents. Even amidst all of the hustle and bustle, we still find time to visit family that has been a distant thought until this season. it really is the season where even the most selfish of people put aside there feelings and for once think about someone else, even if it is only short-lived.
Christmas has a new meaning to me. my daughter was born on december 23rd and has made it even more special for me. i now get to shop for her at christmas and watch her open her presents with such excitement that it takes me back to being a little girl again. She reminds me that even now, there is still that excited little girl in me at christmas and that is something that i hope never dies... Merry Christmas to all!!!

Adoption and such....

I just recently celebrated my 18th year anniversary of my adoption with my parents...(actually it was just yesterday) and it made me think about how different my life would be if these people had not opened their home and their hearts to me. when they took me in, i was a scared and scarred little girl, and now thanks to them i am a beautiful woman with a family of my own. i would not be anywhere near where i am today if it were not for them. i wouldn't have any morals or any sense of modesty.the woman who gave birth to me has been in and out of my life and has caused more pain than she will ever know and it wasn't until recently that i realized that i didn't HAVE to have her be a part of my life, but that i had two parents already and that i would be just fine, if not better without her. she doesn't deserve to know me or my family because she doesn't even know herself. so how can she even begin to know me? if there is one thing that i would thank her for, it is that she made the choice to let someone who could love me and nourish me, be the ones to raise me.
i love my parents more than anything and no matter what i have done, they have always loved me and forgiven me, it may have taken time to get there, but i finally feel like i am having the relationship with my parents that i have always wanted...

Traditions

so as Easter is just around the corner, i find myself thinking about the traditions from my childhood and what we used to do. i remember this one Easter we were at my aunts house and her dog ate my basket of candy! and then there was the one that we spent in Ohio with some friends that had moved from east Middlebury. there were alot of good memories there and i want to have the chance to give my daughter an opportunity to have memories made that she will remember a decade later.

Facebook applications

So there are like over one thousand facebook applications and there are probably just as many spam applications too. what i don't get is how an application like that can be published. i mean isn't there someone who actually test those to make sure that they don't contain a virus or something? if not, maybe there should be someone who does, and not only tests for that but also tests to make sure that the application is legitimate and that is really does what it ways. i mean there are tons of applications where they say you can send free gifts to member who play different games on face book but they don't do a damn thing. all they do is make that person mad and get them even more frustrated. i recently tried using one of those to find out that it was spam. how can spam applications be allowed to be published? i mean everything that you create on face book has to be approved first, so how does something like that get approved in the first place?

The Late Late Show with Craig Fergusun...

Ok so i recently started watching this show and it is pretty funny. He goes on and on about twitter and how its used.
I first saw him in the movie Saving Grace. he was a potsmoking gardener who ends up growing it with the woman that he works for so that she can keep her house after her husband had died leaving her with lots of debts...
while watching this show i have seen alot of mannerisms that i noticed in the movie too and it was just really neat.
He is great at his show and keeps the people entertained until the end.

funny news headlines

So last night i was reading the burlington free press online and one of the headlines of the newspaper was Bad math forces Ed Department to correct list of low-achieving schools...does anyone else think that it is too ironic? it is one of those headlines that you would expect to see on the David Letterman show in the top ten funniest headlines... I saw this and i had to crack a smile.